Am using this to whinge in pathetic self piteous mode. Never been kissed, never had sex, no one's ever wanted to come anywhere near me, I'm going to die alone, I'm lonely, and I desperately want someone to snuggle with.
I hate this wretched excuse for a holiday for making me feel like even more of a loser than I normally do.
But the real losers are the people who take Valentine's Day seriously, anonymouse! It celebrates St. Valentine, who is a Roman martyr known for... being a Roman martyr. THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT HE WAS MARTYRED FOR. Or how he was martyred! Let's celebrate him with cardboard hearts!
I love presents, cards, candy, and compliments, so you would think I would love Valentine's Day, but I don't. I get irked by how it creates a competition for love. Ffs, there's something seriously wrong with that.
Anyway, what I am saying is that you are beautiful and really cool, I bet, and you should BLITHELY IGNORE this stupid holiday. It is a commodified horseshit festival! Go buy yourself a chocolate bar and a face mask in a tube and put your feet up.
I don't even care about the stuff. I don't want flowers, or chocolate, or those other tokens. I just want someone to love and to love me, and to be here, and to want to show me that. I want love and sex and kisses and cuddles and affection so badly it hurts. It's the fact that the holiday reinforces that I'll never have those that kills me.
And I just can't ignore all of that, as much as I want to.
The only guys I've been interested in lately, well, one's married and the other's gay. So, no. And my dream man lives an ocean away and doesn't know I exist, so that's not an option either. I tried putting up an online dating profile, no one cared. I've tried, but no one wants this fat dork.
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Date: 2009-02-13 02:16 pm (UTC)I hate this wretched excuse for a holiday for making me feel like even more of a loser than I normally do.
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Date: 2009-02-13 02:57 pm (UTC)I love presents, cards, candy, and compliments, so you would think I would love Valentine's Day, but I don't. I get irked by how it creates a competition for love. Ffs, there's something seriously wrong with that.
Anyway, what I am saying is that you are beautiful and really cool, I bet, and you should BLITHELY IGNORE this stupid holiday. It is a commodified horseshit festival! Go buy yourself a chocolate bar and a face mask in a tube and put your feet up.
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Date: 2009-02-13 04:36 pm (UTC)And I just can't ignore all of that, as much as I want to.
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Date: 2009-02-13 05:46 pm (UTC)Not that this holiday isn't a good excuse for feeling wretched, but these things don't just happen magically most of the time.. they need work!
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Date: 2009-02-13 06:36 pm (UTC)