I came out of a long relationship a few months back. Bumped into someone I knew years ago, and we embarked on a "thing" that rapidly became the beginnings of a relationship. She's now had a bit of a minor breakdown, and is embarking on CBT next week (not for the first time, either). From one moment to the next, she swings from wanting to see me, texting/talking about sex, and then to freaking out and saying we can't be together. I've suggested we just put everything on hold while she starts CBT and sees how that goes, and that there's no rush for anything to be "formal". I wonder if she is subconsciously pushing me to freak out and destroy any chance of us being together in the future, so she doesn't need to worry about it.
Anyway, I'm an idiot and poured myself into this right at the start, and am now feeling completely broken and empty. I am approaching 40. Christ.
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Date: 2010-05-14 10:48 am (UTC)Anyway, I'm an idiot and poured myself into this right at the start, and am now feeling completely broken and empty. I am approaching 40. Christ.